Pain With Joy

24/2/2007
Satday service lol reached in time hahaha then wow today so special geng hong appear :P after he sang a few song of his and with his gf hahha we went to took photo.
after service only me and ernest went to eat hahaha wow we eat at city hall a new stall very nice saio the food must try . . . >>

25/2/2007
today studying all day long for tml exam paper . . . database hmm . . . then suppose to meet jeffery out to study but since was raining so he say study at home then steph was meeting me at 5pm also to study but she will be late so she sms me say that change to 6pm then never turn up hmm. my parent call they wanted to buy dinner for me but i told them i was going out to study, but end up my parent reach home and found me still at home and getting scold say why i haven go out . . . they never bought my dinner end up getting stuffed :< . . . after that i called steph she say she have ferver don't wish to talk then ok lor ~.~ Just paid for my genting tip and still getting nag by my parent . . . lol u know what it crush with my school program . . . 5 march lol Hize everyone day getting own by parent or other people , went or who will i get to stand up and fight for my rigths? cause i never ~ what they say i have to agree if not thing will getting worst by the argument . . . hahahah so my entire life is like that only Jiang Ling will know cause i told her more then anyone else about myself . . . but now things have been so different so only can talk to my self and will alway be alone. . . no matter where destiny take me to.

I donno why i still belives in JL but who know what she is thinking but one thing for sure, she is very bless cause all thing turn out better in her life....

Celebration With Friends

Today nothing much just hung around at home . . . until 5pm went out with eat with friends :P lol we went to bona vista then walk all the way to holland V. . . a long walk :P

this place is so special we can eat and have games to play hahahaha we eat westen food and lou yiu shen hahaha not bad "P

they have so much fun "P ok then

i trying to be lame hahaha using chopstick to eat :P hahahah. . .

look so many people lol so nosie but one thing for sure is they are having lot of fun hahahah which i'm suprise this is one place to have fun . . .

k then took train home nothing much to do tml got service and need lot of studying . . .

hmmm why am i feeling lonly , without love , without care? . . . but one thing for sure i'm still here on this earth hahaha k la is up to people to decied not up to me . . . what they think is final i have no rite to change their thought so let them be . . . even my parent also since young they alway misunderstand me now what ever i do to them is wrong doing so i don't botter to explain to them no more. . . so is been to world most pain. . . cause u can feel that no one think u are usefull anymore .

Feeling so small to be smash by anything coming next. . . i try to communicate with ppl like koen, marcus, steph, james. . . some how some didn't reply. . . :<>

Readed grace blog this is what she bloged : "right down inside im in a huge frenzy, and i'm trying hard not to show it on the outside, because u'd think i'm mad. it's crazy. i can't believe last night just happened like that. i didn't know where i've picked up the courage from to say all these to you. i really don't like things to turn out this way, but it has to.

it's hard for me to accept that things have to end this way.. out of unwillingness and zero option.. "

is the same feeling of what i have now but no one speak to me about it . . . so i have to endure. . .

just wish i can be like grace pick up the courage to call JL. . .

k sweet dream

Chinese New Year 2007

18/2/2007 - Chinese New Year~
Today Chinese New Year went over to my father side of the family to visit first :P lol nothing much . . . i think that every year is the same :P hahahaha ok then got a few red packet . . . after that went over to my mum sister side. . .

went traveling all slp hahahah

lol at there we were so bored then my uncle say let play card to pass time hahaha ....

is been so long since i took a family photo :> just before we went out i took some . . . even thought i don;t like their character but still are my parent so ya love them as who they are ~.~

that all for the first day~

19/2/2007 - Visit Day
Went over to my mum side today lol nothing much also hahahah seat at the sofa and watch tv all day hahaha then i borrow "Land Of The Dead" form my cousin. . . lol watched very grosse then play Black Jack again ~.~ hahahah sain i'm been giving $ away . . . then around 7pm went over to min kai house to play :> my uncle drive me there since he is on the way there too. . .

lol so long since i last saw warric hahahaha but he drunk . . . and still say he not drunk . . . lol then we play black Jack again and i giving again . . . lol i play splite and guess what i get AA, AA
lol both my left and right hand get AA, AA hahaha how in a million time will u get such a card. . . i won 6 time the $ but i only bet 50 cent :D

then we play majoy hahaha after that we went to eat mac :P then i took taxi home . . . so tired .

20/2/2007 - Family Day. . .
Today went to temple to pray cause my father wanted . . . after pray it rain heavry hmm wonder what sign is that. . . saw my Favorite car today :P ok then after that went to china town to eat :P ok lor not that bad is been so long since i last go out with my family hahaha ...

After we reach home lol my near by block below caught fire lol too bad i cannot get a clear shot >>>

lol that all for the day. . .



21/2/2007 - Study Networking
Today spent the whole day revising networking lol went to woodland library to study. . . lol getting unhealthy by the moment hahaha LJS and KFC . . . lol reach home about 10.30pm so tired, then went out to meet sheng yew to chat for a while . . . end up calling steph and have a 3hr long chat lol my hp BOMB laio cause having some common family problem need some help hahahaha . . . . going to read the book but end up in sleeping in bed . . . till next day . . .

22/2/2007 - Networking Exam
So today is the finally day around 2pm kok yong drove me to school and thank to koen borrow me his calculator cause mine run out of battier. . . study and more study . . . then feeling nervse . . . cause exame going to started and going to see JL . . . cause she seat behide me i more stress . . . after the test get to chat with yvonne a while but did get to talk long. . . after that i wanted to watch ghost rider but no one wanna watch with me . . . hize called koen he watching with his friend at TP now . . .

So i sms adriel to meet him up got alot of thing to talk to him hahaha so we went to see JUST FOLLOW LAW nice very nice. . . after that we spent some time chatting and i felt much much more better. . .

Just reach home. . . that all . . . hmm hize just finish my new blog skin hope people out there like it :P good night. . . and to JL -> sometime i really wanna share my saddness with u but i have no chance to talk to u hize hope u open up one day to hear my words. . .

Day To Night Day 12

Today my last day at work lol once i wake up at 7pm eat and get ready to go work . . . at 8pm but i was late hahahah once i went there not thing much to do so help out to kill time first we went to take trolley lol so many people using the lift so we take the stair . . . 4 floor . . . we took like about 4 time during the night and we alway find why so less trolley ... lol must be the customer too many . . . we went roller coster ride he~ha....

Wow look at the stall out side so many people hahaha keon and friends very busy until headspinning we are totally sold out of stock~~~~..... then cui peng called me and order from me hahaha so i save one box for him~:>~

then after i'm so busy currying all the product back to the shop . . . lol so hungry haven eat yet and then around 2am laio i went to find cui peng and kok yong to eat lol and i also bring along my 2 new friend hahah ok. . . then after they off work hope to see them soon~ we shall me again some day. . . my new friend .
After all that time for clear up oh my why every year i'm doing clearing . . . lol kind of thinking about it . . . my main duty is to stand gard don't know why end up doing non-food, food, promoter and now clearner ~.~ . . .

it take me hr to clean up, and thank to keon help out too hahaha oh my now i know that collecting cardboard is not easy sometime u get cut. . . and somemore so dirty. . . yucks .. .. Especially wet ones.

after all the hard work we get one cage of free drinks :>

look at the trolley that was my and keon share wahahahah we push all the way home hahaha . . . . we got 6 carton of it each can drink up to 1/2 year lol . . .

Just come back from reunion dinner :P

Happy Chinese new year eveyone~

Day To Night Day 10,11

Today nothing much went for chinese new year services :P only me, earest and ah gal went only lol . . .

After service went to eat with ernest and the travel back to woodland to work :> reach just in time and don't know why i'm so tired...

And i seat at the stone chair to stand garde at the lift . .. until i slp lol for 20min hahahah felt so relax when i close my eyes . . .

lol have cup noodle all of us hahaha wa i'm so happy that i have friend like them :P so cheerful. . . :P ok tml going to be the last night for us to see each other hope can get contact with them more.

then later night they stay back to play :> this tiem larry keep losing hahahah u all so happy ya and i'm too tired so after i counted the beers stock i went to sleep on the counter table lol. . . until around 5am then i wake up to go toilet hahah then seat on the table where i use to and pray. . . lol i think i get use to it . . . . :< Today Ntuc give me a box of orange and redpacket. . . so as my church :P . . . lol been currying so many thing home !!!!

Some problem Happen in my NYP TKD a good friend of mine name : Clement was our vice chairman and was been missunderstanding with some member in . . . and what he told me was we are booking BBQ so we need 2 pit one for hala , another is for everthing. . . . but someone told him that no need use one can laio i mean WTH is wrong with that person. . . and now that person went to gearther more people to get involve makeing Clement wanna quit . . .

don't worry my friend i will help u till the end...

Was a great day today~ one more night to go~ poor koen injury his feet . . . take care ok don't work so much until like that la. . . i still want u to go watch Ghost Rider with me!!!! k take care sweet dream!!!

Vanilla Ninja - Pray

I don't wanna wake up this way
I don't wanna hear what they say
Cause I'm feeling way too small
Will this rushing world hear my call?

I am just one person passing by
A million different windows in sight
Each one hides a life
Does anybody know where we go?

I pray - for someone to understand
Cause I'm lost inside this labyrinth
Of thoughts that never end

And I pray - as people pass me by
That they won't see the tears I cry
The tears I cry

I'm a prisoner with my own key
Don't we all just wish to be free?
Still we're waiting for the chance
Although we hold it right in our hands

I pray - for someone to understand
Cause I'm lost inside this labyrinth
Of thoughts that never end
And I pray - as people pass me by
That they won't see the tears I cry
Won't see the tears I cry

And I pray - for someone to understand
Cause I'm lost inside this labyrinth
Of thoughts that never end
And I pray - as people pass me by
That they won't see the tears I cry

Day To Night Day 8,9

13/2/2007 - Pray @ Work
Today went too work and saw many old times friend coming to NTUC hahahahah, then all the promoters and me play poker hahahaha untill 1.30am then left me, Larry and the yoe's promter we play Tia Te hahaha the losser need to do physical exciese lol

1 lose - 10 push up
2 lose - 20 Jumping Jacks
3 lose - 30 Sit ups

lol very intersting we play until 4am saio very fun hahaha what a way to play poker
and that all lol after that ,one of them went home and one of them went to sleep so left me do the watch duty until day break..... around 5am - 6am i pray with song and prayer . . . don't know why tear runing out from eyes. . . i have not feeling of crying just sing and sing until like that hmmm i thought about my goals and dream i have since young...

14/3/2007 - Valentine Day
After work reached home and i smsed steph about what is going to happen and what are our plans . . . we plan very carefully . . . lol look like a project work siao !!!! then i went to rest. . . waiting for steph to sms me . . . So this is it the finally moment wake up at about 5pm then i sms her ask how already and she say to me that JL don't want to meet me. . . but if i wanna go is ok de. . . so i don't wanna make her angry and my gift is with her lol she carrying all day long then adriel told me "why don't you give her yourself. Its more sincere." so so so i become confuse and called steph to replan again. . .

I'm become scare by the moment cause no more time to make decision stpeh say u wanna come be there by 6.30pm or else she went home is ur problem laio so i say ok Go jiu Go bah . . . but i'm still scare so i ask my friend to follow me travel . . . thanks alot sheng yew for following me. . .

Once we reach and meet up with steph, i become stane lol donno what to do too nervous laio so i hit my self a few time to cool down hahaha then we off to find where is crystal jade and end up wasting time finding the place cause they shift to Mac and i went in for this jewelry shop to ask for a bag lol cause i dont want her to know that steph was holding it all day long, and i know that the person doesn't look so happy... and then i was at wortson buying sweet to cool me down and then just nice at the oppsite side only oh die . . . having heartattack arrrrr how can i do this . . .

Was on the way to mac and pass by saw her and a few friend of her and i hide .. .. .. but also been called out by steph arrrr no embressing then she also wanna hide behide those tall guys of her friends . . . k so went up to her wish her and gift her. . . then both of us were so stane and lag so i say since we so pei sie i got to go so i went off with my friend asap without looking back arrrrr i'm humiliated her and my self in front of her friend arrrrrr . . . . then i still wonder is that really her lol look so differet hahahah and i get nagging form my friend and steph . . . then i went back to work.

For the 10hr of working i'm still feeling humiliated cannot get any worst . . . . now just reach home don't wanna think about it lol but it keep reminding me about how silly i was at that point.... k sweet dream Wow what a expensive gift i ever give in my life... Branded Adidas Watch that she say she like to have it....
took me 3 days of overnight work to earn this $.... treasure it well ok... :D

Day To Night Day 6,7

Lol lost count of my day and dates . . . cause always sleeping and stuff

12/2/2007
today went to meet steph to go town to get some of my new year cloth end up we walk and walk until i bought a white jeans for $100+ . . . then around 5pm kok yong came to meet us and we went to shop together as kok also wanna buy something for his friend that he is going to date out. . . hahahah

and i bought something for JL it worth 2 days of my paid . . . 3 more day to ta han :P let have faith . . . tml is velantine and i don't know how should i give it to her hmmm we shall see how it works out . . . already spent all my working $ and my body is tired for all my works. . . even god rest on the 7ths but i work 7days and extra hrs . . . hahahaha
. . . Sweet dream . . . K.O..................

Day To Night Day 5

Today went for service, and they have chinese new year gives hahaha then my cg menber don't want so i took from them the gift i have 4 now hahahaha.

After service i went to pasir ris to meet up with my panter, before he come i went shopping walk walk around to see what to buy lol then went to buy Mac to eat after he came he drives me to woodgrove and there we start our work hahaha

Meet more friend hahaha very friendly hahaha got the tiger beer,coke,yeos,calsbage lol all the boy we hung around and chat hahaha so fun then they want to buy voka to drink they mix with orange, but donno how my friend mix with plum hahaha now taste very wired . . . soure then got the alchol taste . . .

After that they went home left me and a few of them and a group of gals come to ask us saying that : her friend wanna know the tiger boy hahahah so like that lor. . . then i help my panter to buy food then the gals ask me to help them buy Cigar cause they underage and my friend ask me to buy beer too cause he also under age . . .

Then i spent my night playing hp java game hahahah now get headach . . . in the morning the Supervisor ask me to work extra 1 more hr . . . ok lor then i helped an auntie to curry his product hahaha oh man feel like wanna faint . . . then 9am so i went home .. my block de lift B got some one stuck in side and it keep pressing the alarm so i help him called the services to come open the door. . .

then i went home slp until 6pm . . . so tired but it worth all this tiredness. . . ok even up my spriture and working life for now hahaha . . . few more days to go jai you!!!!

Day To Night Day 4

Went to cell group and i was the IC refreshment so i went to seng kang to buy ice cream and sprite ice lol today we have sprite ice float after cell group went to take taxi down to work reach just in time . . .

Hmm tonight the NTUC close at 12am so hahaha spent 2hr chatting :P

so boring after that went to talk to the coffie shop auntie hahahaha untill 3am or so then slack and then i took some photo of the place hahaha
to night so happening someone getting beat up i think saw a few gangster bah hahaha then went i went to toliet i saw blood on tissue hahaha
that all for today hahaha ok going to bed swee dream