Countdown To 2007

Today went out with my sec school friend to countdown . . . was taking bus 912 on my way to cwp i saw cui peng walking home so i called him but he didn't answer so i send sms to him. after i reach cwp me and my friend too train to city hall and then went to sentec to meet up with the rest of them :P

Suppose to go to a place to see firework but there have road block and we were not allow to pass so we went to a pub to watch from there :P before the countdown they have their happy hours, drinking and playing games hahaha even bully Zhen Qun lol i took a lot of photo and then around 10min more till 2007 i faster change my sd card in my digital camera scare later run out of memory again lol record for JL to see. . . 5 4 3 2 1 everyone was partying lol all the soda and spray + pop . . . every where lol i get soaking wet all over me with soda . . . then zhen qun throw a can down . . . nearly hit a person and that person was not happy about it. . .

And i stay there to record the firework . . . sain 1/2 was 1/4 blocked by the building there and i couldn't see the land one . . . hize . . . but at less can see 3/4 of it. . . after that we went to eat and then went to another pub again lol by the time we reach there Sheng yew and Nicolas were much drunk already . . .

Havoc happen out side pub :P

Around 5am in the morning they decided to want home and both of them were kind of much trouble . . . so many police went patrol around and luck for us nothing happen . . . after a few step sheng yew having problem cause some sprirte don't let him pass and have he have to make his way . . . as i'm the one who praying for him . . . as making a open path . . .

we reach the mrt station but it haven open yet . . . so we waited and on the other side of the road there were people fighting . . .

we waited for taxi more then 1hr . . . and finally only have one taxi and the rest of use took mrt home.

lol so tired ~~~~ reach home i found out i lost my sd card . . . now how am i going to school with my project . . . but i have the firework video in my cam :> ok sended much sms to greet most of my friend lol tired tired ok going to bed my leg hurt ~.~

Happy New Year 2007 sweet dream :P

W230 2006 Gathering

Today The Last Church Service And Appreciation Cell group together even today i leg was hurt in the morning went i step out of bed the pain is really great and i was about to give up on today but today is the last so no matter what i have to go. . . ernest reach at 10.30am so i just nice reach woodland to take mrt with him. . . he kind of no voice . . . and on my way to expo in train i spoil my bag again . . . lucky alway carry a spare caribbean so can join it back. . .

As we reach all of us went to a thai restaurant as today cell group just having a dinner that all, we arrived early and went in to seat lol waited for Adriel for 1hr . . . lol we like seating in the restaurant not ordering food lol. . . after that went he come we just nice have started order and the food not enought for us to eat hahaha but was nice ...

Then Adriel (Cell Group Leader) Present Us with a award of the year. . . and :>>>>









And Surprisingly i also have one lol shock me the most. . . as adriel say that i have make a long way here, i attenedent all service and cellgroup. . . even went i'm sick, tired or no $ to travael as i most of time took cab to service cause of so many problem i having and don't have enought rest.

The Award Of Faith

it say :

For his unwavering faith in the goodness and the faith fullness of God
Even through difficult times of uncertainty. He chose to
Stand on the promises of God and kept his faith strong until
He experienced a breakthrough

"I have fought a good fight, i have finished my race , i have kept my faith"

2 Timothy 4:7

Thanks W230 . . . really the one who help most is you all . . . after today last service which really was the best of year 2006 . . . we went to eat near expo where everyone give me some $ to buy my food SAD_SAD i'm wordless but from the bottom of my heart thanks you all.

After that went home and ernest want to give me a ride on cab home wa don't spent $ on me but i know he care of my leg cause for the whole day i was lampying lag behide lol ok la took mrt home and walk all the way home :> just bath and took off the bandage lol much better but my angle hurt . . . all the blood stuck there :<>

My New Year Revaluation for 2007 is big and will i have the Will to done what i promise to do? no one know but i sure will be a history maker again :P i can promise you this. . . really happy that Stephanie brought me in . . . cannot make it this far without her :P make me realise that this world also have alot of problem if not i still living in my dream land . . . :P

k sweet dream i alway miss everyone include My Alien hahahaha ok ~!!! and i know what to do i have grow strong. . . a Man now hahaha

Ren Xin

Today been wakeup by sani called he wanted to come over to my house to finish his project . . . so i don't have enough sleep and . . . after that around 3pm+ went off with sani to marsiling mrt blk 166 there to see sensei again . . . i don’t know how much pain i can Ta Han, to cure my leg need to endure a huge amount of pain , sensei say if it still not heal need to use Zhin Gu laio mean use the needle matted to cure it . . .

Oh my what have i got my self in to ~.~ after that been calling everyone to accompany me to to school to give my Mc to my TKD chairman and also to go support them they really have a low rate attendant rate laio end up meeting chee siang and really have a hard time walking . . . so after i went everyone question how can this be happen lol and Pie Jing Help me bought potato chip thank :P

Chee siang wearing army uniform so he cannot enter the school compound so he waited for me out side . . . after that we took train home to cwp he making me more up sad cause he keep saying those negative thing to me. . . i thought he will understand i having a very very hard time in my life my parent keep putting fault on whatever i do. . . so hard to find people out

I Have Asked:
Chee Wie - Going Out
James - Jurong Point With Friend
Ernest - Didn't Reply
Chun Hua- Didn't Reply
Kok Yong- At Malaysia
Yvonne - Jai Ren You Yue
Stephanie See - Working (Replay Late)
Stephanie - Near NYP but with someone else. . .
Marcus - Still Sleeping in bed
Jeffery - Going Out
Angeling - Only want to go CWP
Min Kia - Didn't Reply

I have try my best non can make it to bring me to school hize sometime happen is ok but is every time lol i wordless on my way home in train i cry in my heart. . . tear holding back . . . . i have no one to talk to or hung out with wanted to go watch "Night At The Museum" Who willing to treat me always i treat people . . . sometime just a little bit of help will do...

Just Few more days oh ya before countdown there is fireworks lol hope to get some shots at it for JL lol she once say chinchilas love fireworks hahaha!!!! this i won't forget~~~ until then i at home fixing my tamiya for my Finally race of the year :P this sunday bah! so after my race going to see firework and countdown !!!!

I HERE ASK WHO WANNA GO COUNT DOWN 2007 ?
GUESS NO ONE ASKED MY QUESTION

As so i pray again to heal my leg and trow me out of this cage i have been in for so long .. .. .. good night everyone Sweet Dream Amen....

40% Heal

Today wakeup at 5pm lol so have my dinner and doing my project and playing same game to kill my boringness lol. . . then ada , sani all come msn me ask me help them do project oh give me a break i'm stress out now holiday i want to take a break . . .

Just a while a go went out with kok yong to have supper he treat me . . . oh my really cannot walk much cause it really hurt a lot in my nerves . . . SAD_SAD i think i need to take extra time to walk a mile. . .

k that all don't wish to walk too much again as i have no $ also lol so hize really wish can go town shop for cloths and stuff hize no time left . . .

K good night. . . Better off in dream where what you want you get it just by imagining it. . . :P

Heal My Leg

t26 dec 2006
Ouch here ouch there cannot seem to go to bed . . . even i was a sleep i feel pain. . . so i stay at home playig my PS2 lol nothing much to day. . . so this is what i get for my chirstmas ~.~ a sollowen leg . . . my father drive me to see chinese sensie and what he told me was my marculs tear and get internal bleeding and she give me a rub on my leg lol i was enduring the pain so pain omg ~.~ i sweat my shirt wet ~.~lll and she bandage it and need to see her firday again hize . . .

i was thinking will it affect in the furture? hmm nvm about that need to learn how to walk first. . . cause got church and TKD and tamiya race for me to go . . . and by next week school start already.Cannot sleep either so me and my brother play game untill 5am in the morning then went to bed. . .

27 dec 2006
today wakeup early as it still hurt . . . hize so don't walk around too much slack around in my house lol playing game listen music. . . today many people asking me out Ernest, jerry, chee siang, james . . . lol but really cannot walk much . . . then sani keep asking me to help in his project i also busying doing my VB.net project too. . . hize. friday , satday so busy . . . i haven bought my New year cloth yet tml want to go buy leh hize hope can get what i want lor but my leg hurt who want to go buy with me !!!!

k tml see how :P good night sweet dream alway i miss that one person also hahaha nvm . . . heal my leg first if not cannot go school laio. . .

甚至超越太平洋的宽广
管他们怎么讲为
了你怕会受多少伤
就算要付出多少的代价
只要我能留你在身旁
闭上眼就一路随着风勇敢去闯
看天空变成了什么形状
再你最无助的时候还有我
默许一个愿望 for you.....

My Sore Leg

Today i don't get to sleep much cause of my leg so aching in the bed no matter how i position it. . . so this morning didn;t get to go for service want to watch that show agian hzie . . . keon also overslept . . . k afternoon all the way doing my stuff and went i went to bath then i found out my leg turn red . . .

Then later night my father help me applied medican hope it help very painful as i walk oh man tml going TKD cause really need to learn the cause grading coming soon. . . k all the best la...

Nothing much to to post hope nothing big in my leg . . . sweet dream Marry Christmas lol didn't get any gift sad_sad...

Christmas Time Of The Year

23 Dec 2006
Today went to service wow what a new look on the stage and is really amzing how they can have band and choir on the top of the stage lol . . .

And i really enjoy the performance by the chc druma group really touching and laughter /:P going to catch it again on monday :P this time going to record down in video :P the show really show how i feel toward that gal i like most . . . hmm wonder she watch it will what any thoughts?

After that our cell group went to tampines to watch Eragon not bad la must see oh man over spent again SAD_SAD. . . then after that went to take bus home . . .

24 Dec 2006
Today jerry called me to go play tamiya as today have compition and just nice my family was going out so they give me a ride there oh man i miss going out with my family is been so long time since i seat in my father car. . . k after i reach wow my friend have taken 1st and 2nd place hahah so i decided not to play as they were my friend la . . lol but i did try anyway spent $7 but no good hahaha my car not up to speed ~.~ missed my old Jet motor. . .

Around 7.30 meet up with min kai and jeff to go eat at plaza singapoura to get lol then we saw yin qi as she told us she saw shew wen also ~.~ hahahaha after i eat so much today i have no more $ as my mum give me $50 for 2 day yet i 1 day spent it all on food and today emily birthday so i share $ with jeff to bought her a present and then they went to town to go clubling at MOS then, I saw my favorite car, as my leg hurt and carrying a bag ~.~ they alway spot check me ~.~ and i also never go dance with them lor so i just stand there for 4hr hahahahah waiting for them to finish dancing ~.~ then we took cab home hize everyone went Bankrupt. . . i O so much $ to everyone hize i don;t have my own $ as i have invest on someone hahahah... now i really broke. who come feed me on my living. . .

Happy Birthday Emily :P
Then 12am sharp i send a sms to JL hope she read it~.~ hize nothing much i can do for now so just a small heartship for her only... now 5am in the morning so going to slp as tml going to expo again at 11.30am need to reach ~.~ going to be late again hize... good night marry chirstmas everyone ~ JOY TO THE WORLD.

Christmas Celebration

21 Dec 2006

Today around night went to cut my hair near jurong point with chee siang and after that went to meet steph at jurong point usually she late then went to eat mac as we chat along . . . and passed her the gift lol by now she will have know what is in it. . .

K then we went home lor as i hear enough thing to make my heart pump so fast . . . reach home, feel so empty then went to bed already. . . anyway hope she like that present i sell to chee siang to give you de lol. . . same la also giving you ma thought exchange present lol guess no on remember me after all hahaha not even yvonne, she bought it for yyq,emily,JL & steph.

22 Dec 2006

Morning went to school for remedial class ~.~ so boring but got learn many thing la not bad lor. . . then got test and so on yvonne came a bit late today during break we went to eat lol, eat too much as only given 15min ~.~ as they started the test sain 1/2. . . lol all msn me shaun,von,jeffery hahahaha we like going together . . . then steph sms me called me even . . . by the time she reach we already finish our class . . . wa really don’t know what going on in her. she asked yvonne and me to come on time yet like that . . . don't say we never called her, i think she never charge her phone at all.

K after that they meet up with JL and went shopping so i have to go khati to get my prize lol so I get a new car again hahaha and played for a while then went home today do a lot of walking my pain is killing me how much can i endure, i think really need to see doctor? reach home rest and then went to cwp to buy present and all the stuff they called me to buy. Having differently to breathe and find all the things i need . . . too much of walking today my leg really hurt and yet no one think is a big deal. . . cause they never felt how it hurts. . .

Went party with keon organize by Adriel :P not bad la is one of a kind celebreation i even have recorded it in my cam :P the gift i give is a FF12-lighter :>

Hmm still thinking what to buy for Emily birthday and yvonne too~ guess i have no much of $ left. Maybe keon is right i spent too much on them and also they eat me that much also. . . hmm
but i donno why i never get repay by any . . . everyone know that they change to person i'm and each of singler one is helping me to get my old self back but too much damage been taken and i have grow t become someone else. . . i don't know what to do any more. i only can hear and see her from far as she know that i spenting too much on her and making me hurt bah. but what each of my friend told me that she just using me to get what ever she want. . . hize. i have no word to say just to hear and think about it.

So sorry ........ good night sweet dream. . . thanks Friend and Keon~~~

A Christmas Gift

Today went out to town with jeffery just nice meet him at the station where we alite :P then we went play pool lol waited for so long and i was meeting chee siang ~.~so only played one round with him :P i win hahaha not bad ar :P

Then rush down to city hall to meet up with him then we go eat at marina square lol thought of went shopping buy cloth cause my mum ask me to go my self new year cloth . . .

So he acompany me to buy somthing :P and haha we got our self a gift :P not bad :P but how am i going to give them . . . that will be a challange. . . a very special gift with all the heartship in it.
hope u all like it.

READ THIS :

I remember the times when I was a child
And the world was full of grace
The wind would whisper of miracles
And a secret magic place
But the sun went down and the first night fell
Like a shadow upon my life
And though all the colours slowly turned to grey

I never lost my faith
In the spirit of the dawn
In the twilight of your soul
There's a voice that guides me home
To the spirit of the dawn
For all the pain in my heart
All the bruises and scars
I'll become the one I was
In the spirit of the dawn
And here I'm wandering through a city of sin
With the creatures of the night
And we shared the suffering and the tears
And the war machines are roaring loud
In this neverending fight
And in a world of broken promises
With a sky that's cracked
Ripped and torn
We'll die just to be reborn

In the spirit of the dawn
In the twilight of your soul
There's a voice that calls me home
To the spirit of the dawn
For all the pain in my heart
All the bruises and scars
I'll become the one I was
In the spirit of the dawn
And I will never lose my faith
In the truth behind my prayers
I keep searching for the desert rain
Cause I know that it will wash away my pain

Finally today have end, hard to life a daily life lol. . . i will keep on walking. . . sweet dream guys

Pain of my Soul

Today went to meet up with sani to follow him to look for PSP but james last min don't want to go. . . so me and him want to bugis but it was raining so we went walk walk and i bought my FV food takopochi to eat hahaha then after that went to buy drink can use the plastic bag as over to go over to sim lim square.

It rain so big and so cold . . . after we shop the whole simlim went he was decided to buy but the shop person was so rude to him so we decided not to buy and went back home as i have to go school for my TKD traning.

As today traning was great so long never train arrr . . . then spraing lol injuy my leg again . . . blue black saio . . . walk with all the pain crying out lough . . . don't wish to walk so much so took a bus home went i reach cwp. called a few person to eat with me but it was raining so i don't think anyone will botter to come lor. called keon, chee siang . . . . . . all give me reson like raining don't want to go out and stuff . . . so don't eat lor i want home . . . lucky in the rice cooker still have some rice so eat them with soya source . . . sain 1/2 .

Nothing much sms yvonne and steph hardly they reply lor. . .

Going bed now i everyday of the night before i sleep i pray so hard that my tear like blood. . . questioning why, why, why in all my question. cause everthing start from a misunderstanding. and she making it so big, ok lor if you are here reading it let's make it easy for everyone, I take all the blame ok everything is i do one ok just put all the fault in me this way you won;t be sad.

Good Night And Marry Christmas~

You Challange Me

Today nothing much been sleeping all day long :P think to get people to come for the celebration this Friday ~.~ later afternoon went over cui peng house to see them play WOW lol interesting hahaha but i no $ to play cause giving all my $ to building church and paying so much $ for my living . . . trying so hard to forget what you did to me but seem my memory so strong that I recall ever single thing i did before you will you ever know?

Sometime all the thing I did before show how i re-act toward you but i know i have to wait as just been a friend to you that also make me wrong? i really don't understand what I did wrong ~.~ just using my prayer and fate to guild me what to do. But everything I do make you angrier hmm that wired for a gal to re-act. No one know what are you thinking about not even your friend around you~ that all I have to blog . till then I pray in my name for your safety and all the blessing to fall upon you. Amen~

Love Is War - Battlefield

You had me from the start
Although you never loved me
With your heart
I've come to understand
The fact that
You just love me as a friend

Hear the voices in my mind
Still I'm messing with my heart
Until I'm going crazy
And now I know

Got stuck on a battlefield
(Go on) back off (o-oh) It's not real
My mind is a fighter's shield
But I'm not made of steel
Got stuck on a battlefield (It's right) so wrong (o-oh)
And it feels like poison
Still I'm standing tall
Still I'm standing tall

Illusionary dreams
Pass through my veins and
Suggest your feelings might change
But your kisses never last
We have no future
And barely had a past
Every single time we touch
Feel I need you way too much
Until I'm going crazy
And now I know

Got stuck on a battlefield
(Go on) back off (o-oh) It's not real
My mind is a fighter's shield
But I'm not made of steel
Got stuck on a battlefield
(It's right) so wrong (o-oh)
And it feels like poison
Still I'm standing tall

Beautiful music and song form the church bring me closer to him as i pray more. the sorrow have gone but the love i have in you will still be there forever i live. good night~

I Will Wait

BONothing much today went racing lol this race very unbeleive able lor race time from 2pm - 6pm but i reach at about 4.30pm lol end up getting 3nd place ;P not bad lor still have my prize of $15
vorcher !!!! then called yvonne ask her wanna eat since i below her house but she not is working at her mum shop so nvm mind !!!!

After race i practical awhile and a gust blow and wa the whole track fly and hit me . . . is like a small tonado lor really . . . and lucky never hit my face only injuy my leg getting cutted by the flying tracks . . . sain 1/2 then we all went home since it started raining and the track is spoil by the wind . . .

Went to cwp to find food lol hize cannot decided what to eat . . . wanted to eat mos. but end up eating KFC lol . . . called many people non are free to eat with me lol it happen alway. . . sain so pack home to eat. later night kok yong called me to go eat ok lor . . . then cui peng also there they chat about WOW lol hahaha nice.
later that went home and today something great happen first time see tamiya track can fly from a gust of wind . . . cool and not cool cause i'm the on getting injuy. . . hize.

Release me form this mysterious waiting
The star are falling,The wind is blowing.
Finally I can hold you in my arms.
Two hearts beating togehter.
Believe me that my heart is never-changing
Waiting a thousand years.
You have my promise
Despite many bitter winters
I never let you go

Close your eyes and tightly grab my hands.
Please recall the past - the days we were in love
We loved each other too muchIt is sorrowful
that we can't even say "I love you."

Every night my heart aches.
I never stop thinking of you
I am used to being alone for such a long time
And I face it with a smile.
Beleve me, I choose to wait
Even though it's painful,
I won't leave.

Only your tenderness can save me from the endless cold.
Let love be a blossonming flower in our hearts.
We can pass through time,
never bowing our heads, and never giving up our dream.

We never forget our promise
Only ture love follows us
as we pass through time
we can't even say "I love you."
The love we have in our hearts is the only never-chaning myth.

GOOD NIGHT SWEET DREAM > > > I WILL WORK HARD < < <

The Story Goes On

After A sad night today wakeup in a blur state . . . so i was late to meet my friend to go test run our tamiya car lol so went to khati to find them but we first time go there lol so i sms yvonne where is that place? seem my friend already arrived . . .

After we arrived nothing much lol oh man i lost my precise ballguide . . . SAD_SAD been finding so hard until i sweating. . . hize more heartaching sometime i just want someone to love me and care for me so hard . . . then around 4pm take train to expo for service . . . after service got bible study lol finally finish lesson 1 going to lesson 2 :P...

K after that went to tamperniss to find the rest of the cg member but they have eaten and going home hize no one want to eat with me lor never mind as my hp also low power so went to near by pa sa ma lum to get some food to eat then take bus home . . . i fall a sleep in the bus and went i wake up just nice reach the stop where i arrived and walk home .

So tired and lonely . . . i tear traveling in mrt even in bus and went i was in service too. . . but i don't want to tear in front of my friend and family. so trying so hard in my life just to give a smiling face. this kind of painfullness i have endure for more then 1 year. . . far more then physical pain is that kind of pain where your headach like feeling vomiting and even want u to do something that not normal person will do . . .

But what someone told me is just to wait and endure. . . i don't know how long i will last smiling in front of people anymore . . . until then i shall pray and cry to god lol seem no one, talk to me or even want to really hear me out. couse some of my friend i told them what happen to me they seem like taking this as a joke. . .

I'm trying 110% harder then i ever could just to chase her . . . and yet other people just give a question and answer that all, why mine is so hard maybe this also seem special to me bah. =_=lll
I still praying harder then ever, doing thing stronger then ever. Cause you saved me~

GOD IS A GIRL - 上帝是女孩

Remembering me
Discover and see
All over the world
She's known as a girl
To those who a free
The mind shall be key
Forgotten as the past
Cause history will last

God is a girl, Wherever you are, Do you believe it, can you recieve it?
God is a girl, Whatever you say, Do you believe it, can you recieve it?
God is a girl, However you live, Do you believe it, can you recieve it?
God is a girl, She's only a girl, Do you believe it, can you recieve it?

She wants to shine
Forever in time
She is so driven
She's always mine
Cleanly and free
She wants you to be
A part of the future
A girl like me
There is a sky
Illuminating us, someone is out there
That we truly trust
There is a rainbow for you and me
A beautiful sunrise eternally

I Wish To Be Dead

Late for school: Take cab help friend tap card but i too late to tap so call classmate to help me sign

3 Project to hand up lucky the 4th one no need to hand-in, cannot even finish my work yet classmate calling here and there, i already fail my vb. . . . I’m a failure to all . . . proving thing that cannot been done but i have done it all except for the gal who i seek most. . .

Very very very tired after school need to go TKD to give grading free . . . then skip training so went meet jeffery to go home ~ no one will know how much pain i currying by not showing out still enduring and with my flesh body i try to cover it with smile to show people i Okay. Actually i already am seeking death . . . but no chance in hell for it to happen . . .

Suffer and more Suffering i shall endure. just a while ago i called Jl but she didn't say a word just been silent. . . and then hung up on me. that all she have to say just "Hello" and all the way silent. . .

What is she thinking what am i doing . . . i have lost . . . before all this i was fixing my cars for tml race well that the only thing keep me alive , and went to woodgrove to eat with chee xiang. . . just before reaching home. lol been writing things backward. . .

I making so much history where is becoming my daily life. . . maybe i die also in a historic way lol. . . k good night Sweeties Dream always kill you.

I Hear You

Today nothing much. . . morning been wakeup by yvonne sms lol if not really sleep all the way thought so i was late and took cab down to NYP :P

Went i hear what yvonne say on the way to AMK i really so heartaching =_=lll take my chance by crossing road in red light lol why no car de .. .. but i did make minkai they all shouted at me lol . . . they know bah.

Questing my self why am i become like this . . . been looking around for your face. . . hize after morning lecture went to AMK to eat and we went to play pool & arcade lol tai yong found so many use up ticket with 1 credit in it lol so we played free game hahahah :P today de pool table something wrong lol hardly get anyball in to the whole . . .

After that went we going to back to school saw tyrone alone so acompany him talk talk lor cause aiya the class don;t talk with him much . . . so later on we team up lor to do project me tyrone , hung wei then we have dinner as tai yong join us :P and i shock to hear what tyrone asked me some question and how come tai yong and hung wie know what happen !!!! oh man the whole class know about me and jl all along.

K hize then they make fun of me lol say that all my blog can turn in to a book to sell laio then say what got chinese and english version what both of them be my "dai yan ren" wa laio lame then the whole world know . . . first to been killed by her saio. lol at less they make me smile for the day.

Last lesson for networking and i from far hear her calling upone me but i don't know how to reply bah just ignore lor which that add more pain in my heart. . . i still waiting for the call which i wirte in the birthday card. . . went to city hall waiting for adriel shop abit and saw this shop selling chocolate nice decided to buy but no $ so i ask the man to give me a name-card lol next time can order :P

After that went for Cell group lol so long never come back already. . . 2hr in there seem fast to me lol hope angel will come on christmas day lol . . . k that all la just reach home to blog all this i wanted to say but really really miss her . . . but everyword you say i hear you!

K someday somehow let faith be bah tml last day to seeing you. suppose christmas bringing you all out to have fun yet like that already guess this christmas will be same as last time, a lonly one. . . thought of exchanging gift with you de. but i did get you a gift which i think i keep it better later your mind saio saio again more trouble and problem~

That all i see, that all i hear, i long for you in my memory of image that all i know~

Longest Pool

Today monring just 1hr lecture then got my maketing test . . . after the test went to find a lab and do my project. . . after that suppost to meet them to talk but then all went home . . . so after the lab went out with jeffery to town play pool lol first we went to singapore plaza to eat my waffer :P wa the chocolate very heavry :P . . .

After that played pool lol been so long hidding my skill hize lol cause so long never play pool with angeling laio hahaha pool master .. .. to me.

Not bad la very challanging match with jeffery
play pounch . . .
1st match : 3 - 0
2nd match :2 - 3 lol after that took train home hize what a relax and tired day after playing so much pool . . . played for 2hr + + .. .. abit sain laio hahaha. . . on my train home so many people called me hahaha . . .

Then reach home using my pc for a while the black out . . .wa liao . . . lucky just awhile nah ok nothing much lor. . .

Good the hear it form yvonne that Jl recover already hmm but it still need to take time lor don't wish to scare her anymore . . . and also i my self scare of her . . . from a small problem become so big and i got many explaning to do once i got the chance to talk to her. . . some my fault some her fault . . . and some others fault . . .

Lol yvonne so late the reply me . . . she been sleeping at home whole day . . . got to pray for her give her more energy hahahah. . . . cause today suppose to ask her along to watch movie cause no one watching and really want to relax abit . . . but she was asleep so let her sleep bah :P sweet dream rock princess~

As for me i fail my best subject and i already sick and tired hize let it be bah i don't care anymore no one care for me . . . but i know theirs people care. cause today been adding all my friend hp number lol also get this chance to ask how their life and stuff not that bad everyone have their own thing to do.

But still christmas just round the conner so guys get your christmas gift ready hahaha your in for a trade ~? i think i'm the only one buying . . . lol sa surly la but really really i really wish someone will return a gift too hize. will there anyone who understand me? is been tired i'm the one alway understanding people lol. . . maybe too much understanding make misunderstanding. . .
But still i care for her, after what i hear from cui peng, make me stay away from her lor, don't want her to hurt her self, only can give long communication help. . . not by msn , sms , or talk. . . is been hard so just watch her from far that all, try not to talk to her lor this is what everyone suggest to me. been storing all the QUESTION and ANSWER in my self wating for the chance to told her the truth of everything that she think about the truoble and problem. . .

K keep praying , traning , resting for growing in strong life. . . waiting for my basic driving test date to come :P all the best and all god people say amen :> zzzzzzzzz Sweeties Dream Never Fatel

Chirst Just Round The Conner

Dec 11 2006
So today school again lol hmm so happening . . . only today then i pick up this subject de programming . . . and i fail my best subject . . . WTH lor forget it bah . . . cause recently too much stuff i think she make me fail 2nd time in my entire life first was math now my best subject . . .
totally sain 1/2. corroupted life style . . . keep on hungry and so sleepy . . . what am i getting in to ?

That all for the day la . . . on my way home saw my tamiya uncle lol he playing RC helicopter nice maybe buying one for my self :P really cool just watching it fly :P k oh ya finally remeber what i want to blog lol. . . > von,stpeh ,JL each of them i did celebrate their birthday but non return me a favroite. . . even CG member no so close to me also bought something for me which i didn't expect that to happen and my classmate also wa sing me birthday song all the way from vivo city and all my ture friend given me the biggest suprise . . . :> alway remeber that day . . .

k that all i want to say good night.

Dec 12 2006
Nothing much revision on marketing cause tml having test and project need to submit . . . sain 1/2 and i have working on a new game C&C lol using ocra like plane shooting game :P.. .. ..

k la going to bed and don't forget to pray all the best christmas to everyone out there :P let this be one of my wish for christmas . . . i have present for von & steph lol i know you all will think is wired but still got to give lor hahaha is a holy gift which , i my self also don't wish to give de :P
too bad god ask me to give =_=ll :>

k see ya!good night tml hope to be a happing one

World Biggest Fool Ever

Dec 9 2006

Today wake up late and did make it on time for service so have to go tml morning de . . . but i make it for bible study suppose to reach early but then the bus just went off . . . so i hope adriel know bah . . . no i want to late is like that cause me to late . . . hize. . . after bible study went to bedok to eat and find my cg member lol nothing much lor so long never see them ok after i eat then went off the meet marcus they all at doubly ghot. . . as they bring me to where the club is oh man cheeky monkey again .. that is where i lost my Hp . . .

Nothing much to do lor i didn't drink much as tml have morning service so around 3am take cab to woodgrove to eat supper with james :P as is james and sheng yew birthday :P then went to bed lol. . .

Dec 10 2006

Today wakeup early lucky never late for service :P just nice the bus just came :P during in the service adriel was waiting for call and he saw JL which i never knottiest, went i saw it she walking pass me then i knottiest and just like once grance i lost in space oh boy then we faster went off to find seats . . . making me fancy . . . today not bad got some singer perform some very nice song for us :P

After service adriel went home cause he got flur and so i went to parklane mall for my last tamiya race this year 2006 and i give it all for yvonne :P not bad after so many technical failure and my car break so i bought a new one and fix it just in time and god bless me i end up 8th place with is the last qualifying prize :P going to give it as a christmas present as my hard-work to earn it . . .

so that all for today oh sorry to keon cannot make it to the concert hize cause time crush . . . nothing much but i did ask my friend to go watch :P hope u all enjoy.

So i reach home rested and called cp one last time to hear what the truth is, after hearing what he say i wordless . . . is already come to very end where there is life or dead to choose cause she having FEAR agains me. . . wow History Maker , World Saker lol . . . stomp the world by stomp

Never in people life happen before i guess i'm to only one who make it . . . this is sacry u know i also scare. . .

Poor yvonne been grounded hize . . . today pray for u to get well lor don't alway sick and next time don't answer call went u are showing la. . . k study and project , test and many thing coming soon~

Good night sweet dream. . .

Hell In A Cell

lol today nothing much in sch just test and project . . . so tired never study lor cause yesterday was asleep went i reach home and i wake up around 4am . . . then went back to sleep.

Nvm after today lesson went for make up cell group alone lol suppose to go with ernest but he not free so i went alone lor since it 7pm start but kok yong drive me back home so still early i tried called people come eat dinner with me but no one free then only ah seng free so he come eat with me :P

Around 7pm went to meet them at woodland mrt station lol this is good near my house only no need to walk all the way. so nothing much but still W230 better :P lol but far ya hahaha ok la after that went to eat mac . . . then went home oh man got to save $ no $ to spent eat so much . . . hahaha. went i was walking home called yvonne and chat lol since no one free so call her see she free to chat lor so sain nah.

K hize so tired and now i'm here blogging but still why i miss her . . . but still i cannot face her now cause of her condition toward me ! . . . k nothing much lor just keep busying my self and also felt so tired easy. tml going tamiya race and service and bible study and james & sheng yew birthday lol so much in one day . . . but it help me to keep my blog intersting ya!!! k see ya

Good Night , As i pray, my blog come to life upon the word i left in here and it shall stay for ever for people to read it. As i pray...... no more nightmare ---> sweet dream pls. . .

Whatever, Whatever, Whatever

Dec 6 2006 Nothing much to cover on after morning lecture went with classmate to go play arcade and pool lol not so moody after all . . . Later after school i get cui peng to help me talk to her but then suppose to be i talking but end up they chatted nvm . . . so i waited for them to finish chatting lor. . . end up never get to ask my question and find my answer anyway i get to know what happening lor, wa liao she say that i make her sick . . . been nice to people also make people sick , then in the future no one will be nice all been nasty already. what she say to Cui peng make me so shock went i hear it . . . nvm i won't be bloging what they all say.

I care but since like that already so just see what gonna happen lor. . . later night went to eat with kok yong and he came to my house to play lol until 3am + like that. . . once he went home i went to sleep without blogging that why hahahah. . .

Dec 7 2006

This morning i late for my lecture . . . end up everyone late cause all the card it with me . . . sain why like that i ever take cab down . . . arrr headache , having headache since this problem started 3weeks ago . . . now using my brother hp lol just got my sim card activated so been keying number since last night oh man so many number lost . . . hize how to find them back. . . break time went to play arcade and having fun trying not to get my headache going heavily.

Today the last lab was so intersting lol the teacher keep making fun out of my classmate . . . asign bf/gf to help in their practical . . . lol there goes everyone making each other laugh. . . feeling so sleeply and i sleeped in the class =_=lll

After what she say yesterday . . . something is wrong , don't even hear my explain keep assume this and that, she anyhow say so many thing that is not true . . . Whatever lor, everyone who know me knows i never do such stupid things.

1) Everyone know that i never edite those photo as they were taken by koen and some are edited by chee siang . . . both of them say to me hack care her as i 问心无愧 i know what i wrong at but this photo stuff has nothing got to do with me. . . people send them to me this also make a fault out of me.

2) After my birthday i didn't even talk to you, what make u say that your illness is my fault too. . .

3) Been doing so much stuff cause this make lives more challanging and intersting ma if not life will be the same as everyday then i have nothing to blog or make a history of it . everything is a challange for me, physical/mentally or spiritually. . . after school today helped yin qi and emily on their work and after that feel so tired and sleeply . . . so didn't make it to cell group as i sms them cause tml got test and need to help yvonne on her project . . .

As i reach home after using my pc for few hr end up in sleeping in my bed . . . once i sleep already 3am in the next morning. . . haven revise my test for tml oh man and haven done the project . . . never mind tml i try all my best .
English words are by my own words

只会流汗不会流泪 I Give all i have
不懂后退只会奉陪只 Never back down, i shall give
想尝到挑战的滋味 To taste my challange you give me
吃一点亏已无所谓 To go thought toughtness i shall be
受一点苦也无所谓 To endure toughtness i shall be
一身伤痕换一分体会 All my injury for you count as non
怎么能够将白变黑 How to clear my name?, with so much misunderstanding
怎么能够将是变非 How to slove thing out?
怎么能够眼睁睁看着世界不分真伪 How can i believes in you when i thought you know me well
做到问心无愧代价不菲 I have my right & wrong, i will pay my price
只要做的对就是最大的安慰 But i believes what i do never hurt someone in return
不管是谁只活一回 We only lives once so i give whatever i can do for you
对得起自己 Believes in my self
也就不必就说后悔 I never regret all my pain and injury are worth doing. . .
问天问地问心无愧 I seek for god and people from earth with all my heart
只要做的对 That the only thing i do right
不管有没有人陪 Even i'm alone
不管是谁只活一回 I only lives once so let make this a history moment
对得起自己 No matter what happen, i still alive today
永远问痛不痛 Endure the pain, Never say die
累不累 1.5 Years for now i'm tired but still keeping stronge, why i see other been together so much easier as not for me and you?

K going to bed again lol sleep more but hope not endless sleep . . . good night

Missing Heart

Today nothing much just want of tkd at night so good to be back to tourture my old self again and i got put in commitee under IT in TKD . . . a new task and job for me . . .

Late night going home asked some of my friend to come out eat but end up no one eating so i bought food home and i forgot that my mun have cook , suddenly i feel so sad why alway i forget my mum have cook yet i bought and she alway trowing away food . . . i very sad . . . that was my mum make for me with all her him yet like that . . .

Suppose today my father bring me to get a new hp but i hav tkd so he only bring home the sim card. . . and i have to wait untill 10/1/2007 then i can have my new hp as that time was my contract due date. . .

I wonder do you want to talk to me? I have so many question wanna ask you! and i'm scary to talk to u, don't know how you will react . . . last lecture i saw you viewing some photo. . . do you even care? is good that i can make u smile again but will it be forever? no one knows only you and god know. . . i have decied to fight for you in TKD ivp coming soon donno i can make it or not

Deep inside the forest, there's a faint fragrant i cherish
Searching for that everyday face, you unexpectedly smile
I wanted to feel you, wanted to see you.
Even when i reached my hand out, your fleeting image flickered in the air.
I have always wanted to meet you, always.
Passing through the sleepless nights
I cry surrounded amidst the light and shadow you have left behind
The sinking evening sun burns my useless self
My bare feet tread on the wreckage of love, seeping red
I tried to touch your hand if it was held out, your voice said"I love you."
Now that unreachable song has been swept away in the wind
Disappeared far away
The hourglass high in the sky, flies past whatever is seen, anything.
That day's sound still echoes.
The views which cannot be touched a second time
Smoothly flowing out"Inerasable"
The increasing past atmosphere, the layers of past memories, these hands and this hair also.
The light and shadow you left behind is too much and has already become too overwhelming.
Deep inside the forest...

GOOD NIGHT MAY A SHOOTING STAR APPEAR~ RIGHT BEFORE YOUR EYES IN THE NIGHT SKY

Waiting Game...

Today went to school by kok yong car :P nothing much or so yvonne thought i did want to talk to her but is not that lor . . . never mind afternoon break was suppose to talk to yvonne. but she left with them so have to wait lor as i have no hp to sms or call anyone so i have to follow my classmate . . .

After playing pool and arcade with them went back to school to have my dinner alone as they have already eaten and they went to class lucky enought i meet keon to eat with me and chat oh my cannot finish my food as i was late so went to class cause having test and my classmate today very lame asking us to put our msn nick as A-Z . . . i was number D and suppose to put a small letter d i went to put a big D lol then i sain sain i change it to di da di da di di da. . . lol

lame lor nvm then JL and steph both of them blked me as i have know. . . nvm lor so curry on with vb and then was suppose to talk thing out but cp say they say wenday so have to wait i wait lor . . . suppose to go town to shop for christmas present but no one going also i have no Hp . . . got to get one quickly . . . after i reach home then my friend smsed me and we went to eat supper . . . aiyo now everyone know i lost my hp lol . . . k nothing much just reach home and spent hrs doing a image : check it out . . . not bad right :? ok that all good night and sweet dream pals. . .

I'm a Sleep

Been sleeping for 12hr lol then just wakeup and get scolding that i told my mum that i lost my hp . . . now just called to cancel my line . . . hize now lost contract with everyone so sain but lucky some of them called my house phone. :P

Then been working on homework lor nothing much just send an e-mail to those who didn't come to lesson that what have need to be done. . . don't want to see anyone been left behide want to die all die. . .

That all for today :P been chatting on phone hahahaha hize what phone to buy leh but i really like my that phone :< . . . now i have to start collecting phone number again sain 1/2 . . .

K going to bed soon hahaha all the best in everthing you all do . . . good night. sweet dream. image of you never fatel. . .

Esplanade DXO

After last night having a long sleep until 3pm then wake up and bath as sani and james arrived . . . but i got to leaves at 4pm so i wont late but end up leaving at 4.30pm and took a cab there.

Oh i forget i low in $ so i asked the cab to took me to withdraw crash from any near by POSB :P
as on my way to EXPO, the uncle talk to me about all his knowing of all this and seem that he is and freethinker or so . . . nvm end up i reach and went in lucky enough i found where they alway seated :P

After service i wanna told adrial but never get a chance to talk to him as he got to go for meeting hize. . . i just wanna know hmm where the god go spoke thought others to the person? cause today that taxi driver seem like god is testing on me something. . . i can felt it wonder why.

And last Tuesday went for prayer meeting i have a vision of some place and i saw it on the internet went i was searching for some bible stuff . . . hmm i also shock that i saw the same place . . .

After service went to eat at bedok and then meet up with zhong wei to go Esplanade DXO :> as everyone i have invited all last min didn't turn out. so i went with zhong wei and saw my classmate so we waiting to go in as i went to buy water to drink and went we went in lol i was escorted out cause i bring out side drinks. . . lol after few hours zhong wei was escorted cause he wear shot pants lol so he went home hize . . . after a few more hours went home with MK lol. . .

Now at home jsut finish bath, and eat lol today never drink too much but i was so sad that i lost my hp as my parent were oversea and now i all alone at home . . . pluse i don't have their handphone number T.T my heart more ach . . . but i have to endure until everything is right again. . . k what to buy for them for christmas present leh hmmm . . . :P

K good night no photo today laio thought of letting u all see about DXO night club de :P k dream well, why alway make me cry and cry in my dream. i donno why so hard to left u but everytime i left you i will have the WILL to fight back to you again . . .

Heavry Headach

Today in school nothing much, having lesson form 8am till 6pm lol got to say this was the longest day i have lol but was pretty fun as some my classmate keep singing Christmas song already . . . making us lol till fall cause they sing each of them is different vocal lol. . .

Today lesson early ended so went to cwp to buy KFC and oh my almost forget i did have enough $ so lucky i did order anything that cost more then what i have.

Around 7.15pm meet up with james and took train to summerset to meet up with everyone lol... after we met we went to Zou but it need to wait till 10pm as someone have booked and like that lor so we went to take bus to other place and we went to a pub lol donno what that name la.. . . ..

Then first today zhi hao birthday so we celebrate with him and we all focus him drink but he have too much end up vomit 3 times. . . lol then zhen quin also drunk keep asking us to drink . . . lol but Nicolas was drunk heavily so we have to call for taxi to bring him home. went we all was about to drunk lol ivy then come wa laio hahaha . . . me and sandy and james also having headache already lol . . . but not bad la starting the song was great :P

I bought a shotburn for jamae and me just very hot lol after that our blood boil hahah so we went out for a rest and james have to go toilet so i bring him go hahaha but in the toilet got people about to fight and argue with the people there so like that lor hahaha. . .

Around 1am in the morning i having bad headach and i vomited lol . . . zhen quin la cheers and cheers . . . sain 1/2 . . . making me headache worst .. .. .. and i seat out side for a while chatting with a uncle also kind also drunk so don't really talk much hahaha but is very strange to me how come I’m not drunk yet hmmm but feeling unwell lol i already drunk about 10th or more + a shortburn. . . lol man i really can drink but my headache making me vomit . . . lol so i think that all for the day la so i ask james wanna go already so we took a cab home wa even worst the taxi drive fast and i get more headache and vomit more lol but lucky never vomit in the cab la as i james ask the cab to stop :P

K and i lost my HP . . . T.T i remember i give james to ask him call sandy that we went home first . . . but sandy also donno what she doing already :<

Sweet Dream always am i hurting my self? or what am i doing to forget things?